MM: Message of Love

My Dear Bea,

Hi, honey…

Since you came to our lives, everyday has been the happiest moments in my life, each day is better than the previous ones. As I always say, the day you came to my life is the day that I realized my purpose in life- it is to be your MOMMY.

From your first smile, first cry and all of the firsts that you’ve had be it good or bad, I was there beside you, when you get sick I am the first one to get alarmed and agitated, if only I could take the sickness away, if only I can have your pain so I don’t have to hear you cry in pain even just for an ounce. I remember those days when I would not sleep the whole night just to check up on you, just to make sure your comfortable and that you are alright. See honey even those days, I will surely keep in my heart- it was those days that I am at my best ( not that I like you being sick), those where the days that I feel wanted more than ever.

From your first teeth, first words spoken and your first walk alone I was prouder than ever. I remember you always calling me DADA when you were learning how to talk and every time I correct you and tell you that I am not DADA but Mommy, you would look at me and call me DADA and then you would flash a big smile on your face ( as if to tease mommy). The first time you called me mommy, I almost cry.. I thought the day will never come that I will be a Mommy and here you are calling me Mommy.. I so love hearing you call me Mommy.

Your wit constantly amaze me… from the way you talk, the way you analyze things, the way you give me attitude whenever you don’t get what you want ( dadi said you got that from me (: )I am just so thankful that you turn out to be so smart and outspoken.

Lately, you have shown so much appreciation to all the things I give you-be it big or small everytime I hand you a present or a treat you would touch my face and say Thank you mommy, I love you then followed with a kiss and hug. Oh, how I feel so happy everytime you do that.. Thank you honey!

I am so inlove with you baby every day more than yesterday… Sometimes I look at you at your sleep and I cant help but wonder what I did to deserve you, you are my miracle, the answer to my prayers and my life. I just hope and pray that you continue to grow up as happy as you can be… as smart as your are now( even more) and as good as God wanted you to be.

Happy valentines day Honey and remember mommy will always love you no matter what. Thank you for changing my life and giving me reason to be thankful everyday.

Love,
Mommy (:

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GT: My valentines date for 2010

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeew, Thursday already... time flies so fast when your having fun ( NOT!). I am still over my head with tax reports and I notice that additional work just keeps on popping everywhere I am (LOL).

Back to this weeks topic.

My valentines date for this year would still be my husband and bea ( as if i have a choice-wouldnt he cut my head off if I go on another date with another man?).

We plan to just go to mass and have lunch out, bea has been insisting that she wants to watch movies and eat PAK-CORN ( popcorn heheeh) everytime we pass by the road leading to the movie house. If there is a good movie to watch we might be able to squeeze in movie to our schedule (as if busy).

Since Feb. 15 is a holiday we can stay up late until we want to 'coz i dont have to work on a Monday (WOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!). Hmmmm... may date might just get lucky huh? *Wink*.

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Happy Thursday everyone

CC: Plans for Valentines Day...

Oh my, is it Wednesday alreay... I am terribly sorry for all those who visited my blog and posted some comments. I am so over my head with work at the office that i dont have time to blog or hop. Thanks so much :).

Anyway on to our topic for this weeks: Plans for Valentines Day.

I asked my hubby where is he taking me for valentines day, he said we will just eat at Palms Resort Hotel ( It is located south of Saipan, and the restaurant is build above a pond with plenty of Japanese Koi fishes, the restaurant also has a nice view of the ocean), it is a bit far from our house but since it is valentines we will be having lunch there after the mass.

I also asked him if I would be receiving a rose from him, he replied: Valentines is on a sunday, so I am not obligated to send you roses LOL...

My husband as I said can be tad romantic at times and there are also times that he would be just to boring (zzzzzzzzzzzzz. Peace daddy). But no matter what I will get and would not get on valentines day, what is more important is how he shows his love for me everyday (:.

Happy wednesday every one!!! Advance Happy valentines day also !!!

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GT: My True Love

MY ONE TRUE LOVE…. JHUN (:

Oh, Thank God this week’s topic in not one of those relationship breaking topics heheheh.

My one true love…. Hmmm how do I describe him? Here is a brief description?

My one True Love is:
5’11 in height
Has chinky eyes
Shoe size is 11
Has nice nose ( which he boast of every now and then)
Recently pack up muscles especially on his upper arms and chest ( heheheh macho (: )
Is sometimes a goof ball
Isn’t romantic
Loves to listen to music with the speakers on full volume
Loves to watch movies ( action/horror/sci-fi is top on the list)
Silent most of the time
Always embraces a pillow when he sleeps
Snores a lot ( :( grrrrrrrrr)
Loves me to death (:

He could be the sweetest person at times but most of the times he makes me crazy every day ( in every way) but I also love him to death (:

This is my share on this weeks theme on Girl’s talk.
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CC: WHY DO I LOVE THEE?

I love you because;

You work hard to give Bea and Me everything and anything we will ever need.

You stood by me on the times I felt my world was crumbling down.

You patiently waited with me to have our own miracle.

You prove to me everyday that your worth loving .

You volunteer to cook/wash the dishes and even clean the house when I am tired and stressed out from work.

You constantly make me laugh with your jokes and your sillyness.

You love bea more than anything/anyone in this world ( more than me, I think heheeh)

You always assure me.. that in time something better will come up.

You always tell me that I deserve more than your giving.

You patiently and quietly wait for me to cool down whenever I am mad.

When I am sick you get so worried especially if I am crying in pain.

You always look forward to the future and find ways on how we can improve our lives.

You thought me how to save, how to be patient and to have more faith.

You are humble and you always give thanks for whatever you have.

You always look back in your past and you find happiness just by realizing how far you’ve come.

This is just a few things why I love my hubby… but like mommy liz’ has said, I love him because of what he is.

Loving is not about finding your perfect match or even having your happy ever after story. I always tell my friend/cousin that if you love someone you don’t go on looking on what he cant do, what he don’t have or what he aint ,its about appreciating what he can do, what he has and what he is.
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Happy Wednesday every one.

Missing out....

Every night whenever I am putting bea to sleep, it would be our usual routine to lay in her bed and catch up on what happened to her all through the day. I would usually ask her what she did at ninang’s house ( her God mother is the one taking care of her while me and dadi is at work), what she ate, did she behave, what she watched and stuff.

Last night after teaching her how to pray I told her to close her eyes and sleep, I told her we needed to wake up early because we will be going to the clinic ( she needed to have a booster shot on her H1N1 shot, while I needed a flu shot and also the H1N1 shot). She told me “ Mommy and bea go to the doctor?, get medicine?” I said yes, she goes on saying “ After doctor Mommy, I go ninang house, watch Dora, eat chicken then shower then eat lunch then sleep then watch Dora again”. I asked her if she wants me to cook soup for her to bring to her ninang’s house, she replied “No, only ninang cook soup for bea”. I asked her if she wants to shower before we go to the Clinic, again she replied “No, bea only shower in ninang’s house”. Then she kissed me and said, Good night Mommy, I love you.

As I was staring at her while she is sleeping, I can’t help feel sad on how much my daughter has adapted to my working situation she knows that she has to stay at her ninang’s house while I am at work. I think she even enjoy staying there because she has planned all her activities while she is at her ninang’s house.

Her ninang in return cant be more proud of her, whenever I come to pick bea up at her house she would always have stories on how well my daughter has accompanied her- how Bea made her laugh with her witty remarks, how entertained she is while bea is dancing and singing. She would even tell me that she was able to have bea eat vegetables. Although I am so happy that someone looks after my Bea while I am trying to help my husband earn for our future I cant help but feel jealous at times.

I should be the one to spend time with my Bea… I should be the one who is teaching her to eat new dish.. I should be the one who stays with her and witness her antics, witt and talent. I feel I am missing out a lot on Bea but most of all I miss being needed. It is as if she doesn’t need me anymore, once when I dropped Bea at her ninang’s house, Bea told me to go back to my car and go to work, I cant help myself but to feel a little pinch in my heart. I realize how much my daughter has grown and that she doesn’t need me that much anymore.

I feel sad, I feel jealous, I feel missing out a lot… If only I could stay home everyday to be the one to take care of bea, if only we have enough and that I don’t have to work anymore I would do a better job as a mom to my daughter.

I only hope with the limited time I am spending with her, I am still doing an excellent job for whatever short time I have with her.

Just a random thought on a cloudy Tuesday afternoon.

Have a great day everyone.

Happy February...... =)

EEEHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.... How time flies, it felt like it was only yesterday when I was still planning on what to cook for our christmas and new years eve dinner. Then planning for my birthday and all of a sudden January was over and here comes the shortest month of the year. Oh my I have so much things to do with so little time in my hands.

At work it is still the usual hectic work I have during tax seasons which unfortunately runs until April of this year but then after that it woud only be the usual postings and things.

I am in the middle of planning for bea's 3rd birthday party ( which will be on May 11-too early? nah- last year i started planning by october heheheh). My husband and I agreed ( well not yet 100% sure) to held the party at the beach. So, I am having a hard time incorporating my Tinkerbell theme with the beach venue. As of now, I have already purchased green and purple drinkign cups to be used to put the candy/loot to be given to the children. I also have purchased large tinkerbell stickers to be put on the cups to go with the theme. I have purchased a dress for bea to wear it is a white sleveless dress with green butterfly prints all over but unfortunately it was lost in the mail and I still have not received that package. there is still so much to do and I have barely a coupel of months to go...there is the menu planning, decorations, cakes and invitations and so much more. I just hope I can give bea another memorable bithday party.

I am also looking forward to a valentines date that my husband promised to give me.... hmmmm i hope he stay true to his promises.

I am also in the middle of something BIG.... it doesnt really involve anybody but my self... come May I will unveil my big surprise hahahah.

Well thats it for my random thoughts on a monday morning.

Hope you guys started your week with a smile.

Happy monday Everyone...